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I can't do anything without colors I love colors I love colors I love colors No man is worth me stopping the God in me No mans pockets is worth stopping colors Settling isn't worth it I'm detailed I'm bold I'm an extrovert I'm frank I'm honest I let go For whoever For whenever For…

Bewildered

"Let it stand" was what I heard after seeking you about what should I do in regards to this season. I don't think I'm hearing you clearly when I'm getting that you won't open the door to employment for me. I find that to be unlike the characteristics of what I've just read in Psalms…

Residency

Father God, as I come to you with the emotions that I have with me on this rainy day. I’m just fighting to cling to your truths. It’s hard being in this place that I am in with no job, no money or even an unlimited metro card to go anywhere. I have no current…

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5/3/17 Father God, I come to you with thanksgiving on what this moment, and time of stillness that I am in. I come to you with gratitude and love for what you are doing in me. Father God, last night as I walked through a realization that lead to the surrendering of being controlling, possessive,…

Shelter

4/17/17 God please move her. Please move Regina Ann* out of this. Father God, what can I do or say? Father God, please move her and pull her out. I am trying to hear from you Lord and just wanting to know what to do for her or how can I assist? God what job…

Assurance 

I don’t know what I want.  I just want God’s truths about me. I want truth about this place that I’m in.  The words that were repeated  for the 99th time don’t hurt enough.  The words that are express don’t trigger the back against the wall. The words don’t trigger being a fighter. The words…

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April 12, 2017 Sensitivity to your voice along with aggressiveness habits conflict with each other father God. They also are affecting my relationship with you. I pray that I can truly learn from this moment, and just be more sensitive to your spirit. I pray that it’s starting to hurt enough. I’m afraid to get…

Jacked Up

I’m so jacked up when we left  It’s getting harder then God uses  the distance to pull out weeds Regina Ann* now admits  her lies inside no wonder she’s not with him he wanted to sex her up right in front of everybody  and then God made us leave  I’m not even with her like…

Healthy

Will I have full hair Will I ever fully hear I’m so tired of you Then you have this dude, full of rage and lies able to live in his sin And you blocked our sins Writing about it doesn’t do justice  Everyday I have trauma worried about getting beaten or raped His (man’s) love…

Stillness 

Father God, It's been real these last few weeks to days leading up to end of March. Father God how stillness is just a wrestle for me, when I'm so used to finding like so many things to do to keep myself busy, and push for productivity. But trusting you God in the midst of…

Thank You God

Father God,  I am just perplexed that I’m in this temporary but unknowing season of employment with Regina Ann*. I don’t know how to come to you, when I just am seeking you for reassurance God that everything is going to be okay. Father God, as I write out to you how I feel, the…

Attacks

It’s so hard for me to understand.  I have a hard time understanding what I’m asking for. That’s what bothers me. It’s very frustrating.  That’s why I want to give up. In my core I just want God. What is a leap of faith? Where am I even leaping?  What does it look like? Does…