Bewildered

"Let it stand" was what I heard after seeking you about what should I do in regards to this season. I don't think I'm hearing you clearly when I'm getting that you won't open the door to employment for me. I find that to be unlike the characteristics of what I've just read in Psalms…

Residency

Father God, as I come to you with the emotions that I have with me on this rainy day. I’m just fighting to cling to your truths. It’s hard being in this place that I am in with no job, no money or even an unlimited metro card to go anywhere. I have no current…

Shortcuts 

5/3/17 Father God, I come to you with thanksgiving on what this moment, and time of stillness that I am in. I come to you with gratitude and love for what you are doing in me. Father God, last night as I walked through a realization that lead to the surrendering of being controlling, possessive,…

Shelter

4/17/17 God please move her. Please move Regina Ann* out of this. Father God, what can I do or say? Father God, please move her and pull her out. I am trying to hear from you Lord and just wanting to know what to do for her or how can I assist? God what job…

Comments 

April 12, 2017 Sensitivity to your voice along with aggressiveness habits conflict with each other father God. They also are affecting my relationship with you. I pray that I can truly learn from this moment, and just be more sensitive to your spirit. I pray that it’s starting to hurt enough. I’m afraid to get…

Jacked Up

I’m so jacked up when we left  It’s getting harder then God uses  the distance to pull out weeds Regina Ann* now admits  her lies inside no wonder she’s not with him he wanted to sex her up right in front of everybody  and then God made us leave  I’m not even with her like…

Stillness 

Father God, It's been real these last few weeks to days leading up to end of March. Father God how stillness is just a wrestle for me, when I'm so used to finding like so many things to do to keep myself busy, and push for productivity. But trusting you God in the midst of…

Thank You God

Father God,  I am just perplexed that I’m in this temporary but unknowing season of employment with Regina Ann*. I don’t know how to come to you, when I just am seeking you for reassurance God that everything is going to be okay. Father God, as I write out to you how I feel, the…

Virgin 

I’m afraid for him to touch me I’m afraid I can’t express it Something popped with him Like how he sees me I don’t know something popped  Something popped for him Or for me and something I now see I can’t  I don’t want  I’m a virgin I can’t  I want out I can make…

Behold (Part II)

3/23/17 Being still is very hard for me Father God, as I come to you no longer wanting to get suck in the reels of the Explorer page of Instagram. I lay down my desires with cosmetics, skin care, beauty regiments, and hair, body, nails.  God I truly desire, and I come to lay it…

Forward

Alabama change our lives God.  It truly awaken something  in our core within the depths  of Regina Ann* and I.  Father God following the trip  I chopped off all of my hair,  unafraid to start  from scratch all over again.  I was way too excited  to take the leap with my hair;  however, the trip…

Schemes and Payments

2/18/17 Make the food taste really bad God  Make me pay for any wrong emotions or ambitions I had  Make me pay I’m sorry and I was wrong  Lying is the name on my birth certificate Lying was the crime that I have done Lying change my perception and reception to see that people welcome…