I don’t know what I want.  I just want God’s truths about me. I want truth about this place that I’m in.  The words that were repeated  for the 99th time don’t hurt enough.  The words that are express don’t trigger the back against the wall. The words don’t trigger being a fighter. The words […]

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Jacked Up

I’m so jacked up when we left  It’s getting harder then God uses  the distance to pull out weeds Regina Ann* now admits  her lies inside no wonder she’s not with him he wanted to sex her up right in front of everybody  and then God made us leave  I’m not even with her like […]

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Been advocating for myself since eleven years old, and I got blocked  That’s my problem all three of them  are ahead and see what I can’t yet  that’s my problem I don’t know  where I will be next month so I need to stock up pursuit93 commentaries  bothered me deeply everyone saw this and she’s […]

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So where is He? The Bible says  He is our Father so where is He? People say  I’m aggressive  No honey, I just want to  hear from God. Others hear from God. People know  the voice of God yet nitpick and reject  what He commands. I’m just trying  to hear and understand. Why was she  […]

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One hundred sixty four 

It’s so hard to trust you right now I feel like you let me down God  I feel like you continuously just disturbed me Why do I have to be open to a man that doesn’t have my problems  That man will always have an opening  But Wynee had to fend  I want more than […]

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Will I have full hair Will I ever fully hear I’m so tired of you Then you have this dude, full of rage and lies able to live in his sin And you blocked our sins Writing about it doesn’t do justice  Everyday I have trauma worried about getting beaten or raped His (man’s) love […]

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It’s so hard for me to understand.  I have a hard time understanding what I’m asking for. That’s what bothers me. It’s very frustrating.  That’s why I want to give up. In my core I just want God. What is a leap of faith? Where am I even leaping?  What does it look like? Does […]

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