God Says 

It feels like everyone knows  the voice of God but me God says Be Free I’m free regardless  what comes to me Unsure what’s to be  God says let it all go Did I create this connection  so I’m no longer alone I feel stranded by setbacks It’s constant attacks  Everyone freely makes mistakes  but…

Faithful

He’s not right here  He’s home with a church, with support, and his family It’s just me and Regina Ann* foolishly on the phone, and ready to read the word Am I not meek enough? What virtue do I not possess? Where I’m missing out on my blessings? Her earthly father set her up That’s…

One hundred sixty four 

It's so hard to trust you right now I feel like you let me down God  I feel like you continuously just disturbed me Why do I have to be open to a man that doesn't have my problems  That man will always have an opening  But Wynee had to fend  I want more than…

Healthy

Will I have full hair Will I ever fully hear I’m so tired of you Then you have this dude, full of rage and lies able to live in his sin And you blocked our sins Writing about it doesn’t do justice  Everyday I have trauma worried about getting beaten or raped His (man’s) love…

Stillness 

Father God, It's been real these last few weeks to days leading up to end of March. Father God how stillness is just a wrestle for me, when I'm so used to finding like so many things to do to keep myself busy, and push for productivity. But trusting you God in the midst of…

Thank You God

Father God,  I am just perplexed that I’m in this temporary but unknowing season of employment with Regina Ann*. I don’t know how to come to you, when I just am seeking you for reassurance God that everything is going to be okay. Father God, as I write out to you how I feel, the…

Attacks

It’s so hard for me to understand.  I have a hard time understanding what I’m asking for. That’s what bothers me. It’s very frustrating.  That’s why I want to give up. In my core I just want God. What is a leap of faith? Where am I even leaping?  What does it look like? Does…

Virgin 

I’m afraid for him to touch me I’m afraid I can’t express it Something popped with him Like how he sees me I don’t know something popped  Something popped for him Or for me and something I now see I can’t  I don’t want  I’m a virgin I can’t  I want out I can make…

Behold (Part II)

3/23/17 Being still is very hard for me Father God, as I come to you no longer wanting to get suck in the reels of the Explorer page of Instagram. I lay down my desires with cosmetics, skin care, beauty regiments, and hair, body, nails.  God I truly desire, and I come to lay it…

Behold

She knows she lost him already.  Her sins are wanting to  keep her in bondages  so that she doesn’t lay  them down and release freedom  from him or for him.  She doesn’t want him  seemingly to become better than them.  She doesn’t want it. So she remains in her stench.  God is like I have…

Forward

Alabama change our lives God.  It truly awaken something  in our core within the depths  of Regina Ann* and I.  Father God following the trip  I chopped off all of my hair,  unafraid to start  from scratch all over again.  I was way too excited  to take the leap with my hair;  however, the trip…

Exposes 

Exposed the media and expectations  And how the media made me believe I wasn’t good enough  So what do you do when people make me want to believe I’m the help  I feel like I would never be accepted  I don’t match I don’t match  I don’t match  I try to be intentional about what…