Misunderstood 

So where is He? The Bible says  He is our Father so where is He? People say  I’m aggressive  No honey, I just want to  hear from God. Others hear from God. People know  the voice of God yet nitpick and reject  what He commands. I’m just trying  to hear and understand. Why was she …

Midnight Power

In awe of who you are The midnight hour  is your power.  The grace you show thee  is beyond worthy  You are an awesome God Shaken because the rocks  and stone within me  are disrupted to  radiate your praise I'm emitted with  your smitten of your glory.  I'm in awe of your glory  I'm in…

God Says 

It feels like everyone knows  the voice of God but me God says Be Free I’m free regardless  what comes to me Unsure what’s to be  God says let it all go Did I create this connection  so I’m no longer alone I feel stranded by setbacks It’s constant attacks  Everyone freely makes mistakes  but…

Faithful

He’s not right here  He’s home with a church, with support, and his family It’s just me and Regina Ann* foolishly on the phone, and ready to read the word Am I not meek enough? What virtue do I not possess? Where I’m missing out on my blessings? Her earthly father set her up That’s…

One hundred sixty four 

It's so hard to trust you right now I feel like you let me down God  I feel like you continuously just disturbed me Why do I have to be open to a man that doesn't have my problems  That man will always have an opening  But Wynee had to fend  I want more than…

Healthy

Will I have full hair Will I ever fully hear I’m so tired of you Then you have this dude, full of rage and lies able to live in his sin And you blocked our sins Writing about it doesn’t do justice  Everyday I have trauma worried about getting beaten or raped His (man’s) love…

Stillness 

Father God, It's been real these last few weeks to days leading up to end of March. Father God how stillness is just a wrestle for me, when I'm so used to finding like so many things to do to keep myself busy, and push for productivity. But trusting you God in the midst of…

Thank You God

Father God,  I am just perplexed that I’m in this temporary but unknowing season of employment with Regina Ann*. I don’t know how to come to you, when I just am seeking you for reassurance God that everything is going to be okay. Father God, as I write out to you how I feel, the…

Attacks

It’s so hard for me to understand.  I have a hard time understanding what I’m asking for. That’s what bothers me. It’s very frustrating.  That’s why I want to give up. In my core I just want God. What is a leap of faith? Where am I even leaping?  What does it look like? Does…

Virgin 

I’m afraid for him to touch me I’m afraid I can’t express it Something popped with him Like how he sees me I don’t know something popped  Something popped for him Or for me and something I now see I can’t  I don’t want  I’m a virgin I can’t  I want out I can make…